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Posted by sar on June 30, 2001, at 13:55:48
I've posted so much dark gloom on this board that I thought I'd tell yall what happened to me yesterday.
Felt better because it was my third day out of the hospital. I enjoyed being at the hospital, and they added klonopin to my prozac.
yesterday at work i felt funny. i felt ALIVE and totally human, it's difficult to describe, but after severe depression/social phobia it felt bizarre to be flitting around the store helping customers, cracking jokes, carrying on conversations with ease rather than pounding heart and thoughts of death. Yesterday was so much fun. I went out with some friends, too.
I still look at my feet when I walk but I've painted my toenails a real slutty shade of hot pink to keep myself amused.
just had to report the good news to some folks who'll understand.
sar
Posted by judy1 on June 30, 2001, at 16:00:38
In reply to good news, posted by sar on June 30, 2001, at 13:55:48
I am so happy for you- it's like the sun broke out at last. I laughed at your toenails- when I start ramping up to a manic episode I almost always get a bright red pedicure with a unicorn painted on my big toe! Enjoy your happiness- judy
Posted by kazoo on June 30, 2001, at 16:28:24
In reply to good news, posted by sar on June 30, 2001, at 13:55:48
> I still look at my feet when I walk but I've painted my toenails a real slutty shade of hot pink to keep myself amused.
> sar^^^^^^^^^^^
Confessions of a podiphile:Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sugar is sweet
And so are Sar's feet!MEOW!
From the sublime to the ridiculous, I remain ...
(a) kazoo
Posted by shelliR on June 30, 2001, at 20:06:21
In reply to good news, posted by sar on June 30, 2001, at 13:55:48
> I've posted so much dark gloom on this board that I thought I'd tell yall what happened to me yesterday.
>
> Felt better because it was my third day out of the hospital. I enjoyed being at the hospital, and they added klonopin to my prozac.
>
> yesterday at work i felt funny. i felt ALIVE and totally human, it's difficult to describe, but after severe depression/social phobia it felt bizarre to be flitting around the store helping customers, cracking jokes, carrying on conversations with ease rather than pounding heart and thoughts of death. Yesterday was so much fun. I went out with some friends, too.
>
> I still look at my feet when I walk but I've painted my toenails a real slutty shade of hot pink to keep myself amused.
>
> just had to report the good news to some folks who'll understand.
>
> sarHi Sar. Just wanted to say I enjoy reading your posts. The way you experience things is really unique and makes me smile.
You write "I enjoyed being at the hospital"; much like someone else would write, "I enjoyed being at the beach".
I think you are a young woman who creates adventure and sees a silver lining.
Shelli
Posted by sar on July 1, 2001, at 1:11:57
In reply to Re: good news » sar, posted by shelliR on June 30, 2001, at 20:06:21
dear everyone,
thanks for the kind words, yall are sweethearts. Judy, you've got to give me your pedicurist's name! hook it up, girl, i want a unicorn too (how does she do that?).
Kazoo, loved the poem. now if only i could find some one to PULL my toes...ahhhh...
Shelli, your post made me laugh. I really did get lucky with the hospital, though. They fed me xanax 3 times a day, lit my cigarettes for me, and offered me a vegetarian option in the cafeteria. A lot of the people on the ward, about a dozen of them, seemed to have much more serious problems than mine--heroin addiction, homocidal feelings, very hardcore alcoholism, schizophrenia...they brought the caretaker out in me. I scarcely knew one existed prior to that. My social anxiety melted away and I spoke with everyone at length (of course, all the pills the nurses tossed down my gullet may have played a part in that.) We shared cigarettes, books, and gum, exchanged e-mail addresses...it was a relief to see people openly being vulnerable. I just needed that for awhile. (and i dug being taken care of.)
"Creates adventure..." hee hee...how 'bout creates psychodrama? or both, we'll compromise.
much love & respect,
sar
Posted by Anna Laura on July 1, 2001, at 2:52:18
In reply to good news, posted by sar on June 30, 2001, at 13:55:48
> I've posted so much dark gloom on this board that I thought I'd tell yall what happened to me yesterday.
>
> Felt better because it was my third day out of the hospital. I enjoyed being at the hospital, and they added klonopin to my prozac.
>
> yesterday at work i felt funny. i felt ALIVE and totally human, it's difficult to describe, but after severe depression/social phobia it felt bizarre to be flitting around the store helping customers, cracking jokes, carrying on conversations with ease rather than pounding heart and thoughts of death. Yesterday was so much fun. I went out with some friends, too.
>
> I still look at my feet when I walk but I've painted my toenails a real slutty shade of hot pink to keep myself amused.
>
> just had to report the good news to some folks who'll understand.
>
> sarThat's great man!!!!I'm really happy for you Sar: you deserve it.
Posted by Roo on July 2, 2001, at 7:36:32
In reply to Re: good news, posted by Anna Laura on July 1, 2001, at 2:52:18
Sar--
Just wanted to say--you are funny, girl! Thanks
for making me laugh. Love your posts!Roo
Posted by sar on July 3, 2001, at 1:11:51
In reply to Re: good news, posted by Roo on July 2, 2001, at 7:36:32
My dear Roo and Anna Laura,
thank you. I enjoy both yall's as well, so honest and real...ShelliR and judy1 are so informative and supportive, and kazoo with his jokes...Why do I imagine kazoo as George Carlin?
by the way, Shelli & Judy, I wish you'd post more often...what happened to the Old Guard? Miss reading your more personal posts.
love,
sar
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