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Posted by Annabelle Smith on May 6, 2011, at 0:10:16
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Runner01girl is me.
I started re-posting on psychobabble last October because that was the time that I rediscovered this resource. I remembered posting something relating to eating problems years ago, but could never find it. Finally, I came across those posts again. It is strange to read now. Different but the same.
I am having trouble with bingeing and sugar now. I need to be careful so that my blood sugar doesn't get messed up. I feel empty. It is worse at night and on the weekends and now for me, at the end of the semester, the communities that I am used to are closing down for the year.
So I am having trouble with bingeing.
I had my session today. I simulataneously feel like it was time well spent and also, as usual, that I wasted my time by dissociating and having trouble being present. But I think the level of dissociation was less this time. Often, I have to hold one of the pillows from my therapist's couch on my lap. Today, I didn't hold anything at first, and then held my DBT workbook towards the end. I brought it to show to him, to show him that I was trying the skills that we talk about, that I am doing the best I can.
I felt despair in leaving the session today, as always. But I think I communicated that to my therapist in words today, and I think he gets it. So in that way, I am not alone. Also, we are meeting next Monday, which is only 4 days away. I can make that. 7 is really hard, but 4 is doable.
Maybe it will be a course not of busting out of my false self and habits, but rather of slowly changing and emerging into a true way of being.
I hope. Just trying to push away feelings of hopelessness.
Posted by Dinah on May 7, 2011, at 9:10:00
In reply to A different name/ A while back, posted by Annabelle Smith on May 6, 2011, at 0:10:16
Good for you! You did very well.
Is there any way to get into a DBT group where you are? Most of them also require individual therapy so it needn't affect your therapy. And it never hurts to brush up on skills.
Is there anything you'd like to try that you could investigate during the summer? An art class? A sewing class? A welding class? Distraction is a good thing. I rather enjoy endless games of Bejeweled when I am upset. It's almost hypnotic and not too challenging.
Posted by Annabelle Smith on May 7, 2011, at 12:43:52
In reply to Re: A different name/ A while back » Annabelle Smith, posted by Dinah on May 7, 2011, at 9:10:00
Thanks, Dinah.
I don't know about group DBT. I am not sure if there are any such courses around here. My therapist has never mentioned it to me before. I really think that I am in DBT therapy as far as individual sessions go--the structure as well as the ability to call in between sessions if there is an emergency. That means so much to me. I would have a lot of trouble working with a therapist who didn't allow phone calls during emergencies-- and I know that not all therapists do this. But it is a key component of DBT.
I am not sure why my therapist has never mentioned the group session to me. Maybe there aren't any around here. Maybe there is a financial concern. I have a very limited budget, and therapy with a sliding-scale fee is about all I can manage right now. That is probably one of the main reasons why twice weekly sessions are not possible for me (also my therapist has mentioned concerns about dependency). I think my therapist has tried to substitute the DBT workbook as my group session.
As for the summer, yes, I do need to find something to do. I am moving into a new house nearby that is an intentional (new monastic-ish) community connected with a local church. The purpose of the community is to connect to the surrounding larger community, much of which is very low income. I will be living with four guys, but they all seem really caring and kind. I move in at the beginning of June. I am looking for a second summer job to meet my expenses.
But I need to find a new activity. I thought about yoga, more running, hiking at a nearby park, learning a new language, or doing some reading.
A road trip?
An art class sounds good too.
Posted by Dinah on May 7, 2011, at 13:40:05
In reply to Re: A different name/ A while back » Dinah, posted by Annabelle Smith on May 7, 2011, at 12:43:52
A year or two ago I took a stained glass class. I can't tell you the feeling of mastery I got when I was able to solder. I felt like if I could solder, I could do anything.
I kind of let it slip. I ought to go back to that.
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