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Posted by Verloren on June 23, 2010, at 20:41:46
Having a hard time tonight.
Everything is just too out of place.
I'm trying, I've been trying to stay positive. It's for my own good.
This night it broke.
I sit now in complete darkness. I've been laying here for hours. I can't talk. I can barely move. I feel like I haven't the will to do anything. I only ate junk food tonight and then only enough chocolate to start to numb my feelings.
I have liquor. If I could move my legs I'd probably go get it.
Why did it have to break. Why tonight. I had so much to do. I don't remember what anymore.
I did call Ada. But got her voicemailbox. She called back but my signal bars were too low and the phone didn't ring so it sent her to my voicemail.
Every few minutes I listen to her message. Not for comfort. Not for solace. For errors. For stumbles, ums, and uhs. I don't know why I'm doing this. Why I'm analyzing instead of finding calm and comfort.
I tried to call her back but she was already gone.
Gone
Which is appropriate since I am ... gone
Posted by obsidian on June 23, 2010, at 21:25:45
In reply to I hate voicemail *trigger*, posted by Verloren on June 23, 2010, at 20:41:46
oh ((((((Verloren))))))
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way
you sound so very hurt :-(
Posted by onceupon on June 23, 2010, at 23:36:00
In reply to I hate voicemail *trigger*, posted by Verloren on June 23, 2010, at 20:41:46
I'm so sorry that things feel broken, Verloren. Hope you get some rest and respite and find peace soon. Take good care.
Posted by Verloren on June 24, 2010, at 14:04:26
In reply to Re: I hate voicemail *trigger* » Verloren, posted by obsidian on June 23, 2010, at 21:25:45
Thank you Sid
I don't know when it'll get better again.
I wish soon
-v
Posted by Verloren on June 24, 2010, at 14:10:49
In reply to Re: I hate voicemail *trigger*, posted by onceupon on June 23, 2010, at 23:36:00
Thank you, I hope I do too.
Today is weird though, feels like an extension of yesterday.
-v
Posted by Dinah on June 28, 2010, at 9:46:36
In reply to I hate voicemail *trigger*, posted by Verloren on June 23, 2010, at 20:41:46
I hope you're feeling better Verloren.
Are you on any medications for depression? Do you have a psychiatrist?
Posted by Verloren on June 28, 2010, at 14:48:12
In reply to Re: I hate voicemail *trigger* » Verloren, posted by Dinah on June 28, 2010, at 9:46:36
Hi Dinah I think I am better. I am different but I am getting better. Or should I say, I have a different set of worries and no time for wallowing in the dark right now.
I saw Ada on Thursday and then again Saturday and I will see her again tomorrow, which I think helps with all of this.
I do not have a psychiatrist anymore ever since I stopped seeing the one that was really, really horrible therefore I am not on any medication right now. I want to try to do this, get better, without the help of medicine and despite the fact that everyone thinks that is a bad idea.
I am just hoping that lately I have been overwhelmed and it is not a matter of my depression deepening but that I need to have some time and some outlets to deal with everything.-v
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