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Posted by mmealltalk on June 10, 2010, at 19:12:12
I dont know what is happening to me. I am feeling so much worse by the day and it is scaring me. A few years ago I was in and out of the hospital and in day treatment programs for a few years etc, and I promised myself I would never allow myself to return to that place in life that I require such treatment. Right now I feel like I did before being hospitalized the 2nd time. Ie- not knowing what to do or how to take care of myself, or caring about anything, crying all the time. I am drowning fast and I promised myself I wouldnt return to the world of hospitals etc and I may have to, and I hate myself already for requiring that in the past, it would make me even more of a failure if I have to return. This is so hard to digest.
Mel
I dont know what is happening to me. I am feeling so much worse by the day and it is scaring me. A few years ago I was in and out of the hospital and in day treatment programs for a few years etc, and I promised myself I would never allow myself to return to that place in life that I require such treatment. Right now I feel like I did before being hospitalized the 2nd time. Ie- not knowing what to do or how to take care of myself, or caring about anything, crying all the time. I am drowning fast and I promised myself I wouldnt return to the world of hospitals etc and I may have to, and I hate myself already for requiring that in the past, it would make me even more of a failure if I have to return. This is so hard to digest.
Mel
Posted by allisonfly on June 10, 2010, at 21:12:41
In reply to seriously going downhill, posted by mmealltalk on June 10, 2010, at 19:12:12
Hi Mel,
I am really sorry you are having such a difficult time. It sounds like things are at a place where you really need more intensive help and services. That's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of...or to hate yourself for. I know it's trite, but it's really true that it takes a strong person to admit when they need help. I just finished my first run in a day treatment program last week, and I told everyone I felt like a failure the first day I was there. But the support I got from other people was life-saving and so warm and wonderful. If you need something like that to help you now, please don't deny yourself because of feeling like you have failed somehow. That's just a trick that depression plays on us.Take care of yourself.
((Mel))
A.
Posted by Laney on June 11, 2010, at 9:07:15
In reply to Re: seriously going downhill, posted by allisonfly on June 10, 2010, at 21:12:41
Mel,
I don't know you but the previous poster is right. It takes courage to seek help. You are stronger than you think. Keep us posted as to how your doing.
Laney
Posted by healing928 on June 13, 2010, at 22:06:46
In reply to Re: seriously going downhill, posted by Laney on June 11, 2010, at 9:07:15
I haven't posted in a long time, but came back because having a really difficult time after many months of doing well. I think sometimes some of us need more reinforcements and support. We are all different and learn differently.
Posted by mmealltalk on June 13, 2010, at 22:23:17
In reply to Re: seriously going downhill, posted by healing928 on June 13, 2010, at 22:06:46
Let's add to my deteriorating life- my t just announced that she'd be away the 1st three weeks of august, which is a month away, but I barely get by 2 days w/o some sort of communication, how will I possibly survive 3 weeks? Plus most of my friends I have met at some sort of group or program and those closest are also in very bad shape so its not like I feel I have a support system. And, my sister whose 1 & 3yr old sons are my only source of pleasure will be away the first week of august too so I won't be able to get a break from my misery to see them. And, next week I have an IME for my psych disability and all I need is to have problems with that. I'm in really bad shape!
Mel
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