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Posted by gibbons482 on October 1, 2009, at 21:04:35
I've tried talking myself out of this, darn CBT is NOT working. I'm terrified. I'm scared of getting to the point wellness when I'll see the NP, Nurse Practitioner. I love my doctor and I don't want to see anyone else but him. Like Deneb, I'm slightly upset my appointments are getting further apart, but I only see the doctor for med management and a bit of a chat. I find myself at a crossroads here. Between wanting to get well and wanting to stay sick enough that I'll never have to see the NP. I don't know what to do, how to feel, but I CAN'T see the NP. I'm terrified and alone right now. Please someone reply
Posted by Voce on October 1, 2009, at 23:25:19
In reply to Terrified and Alone, posted by gibbons482 on October 1, 2009, at 21:04:35
I'm so sorry you feel alone. It's a terrible feeling isn't it?
Does your doctor know how you feel?
Can you do something nice for yourself tonight to help yourself get through? Some music, a snuggle with a pet, some coffee or tea? I hope you can find some comfort tonight.
Posted by onceupon on October 2, 2009, at 1:41:32
In reply to Terrified and Alone, posted by gibbons482 on October 1, 2009, at 21:04:35
Sorry you're hurting, gibbons. I think I know how it feels to be scared of getting well. Been there before. But there are definite positives to feeling well too. I think it's great that you reached out here. Hope you're not feeling as alone at the moment. Is there something you can do to help take the edge off? Something soothing to your senses?
Posted by Phillipa on October 2, 2009, at 13:39:19
In reply to Re: Terrified and Alone, posted by onceupon on October 2, 2009, at 1:41:32
How are you doing today? Phillipa
Posted by gibbons482 on October 2, 2009, at 16:39:54
In reply to Re: Terrified and Alone, posted by Phillipa on October 2, 2009, at 13:39:19
I ended up taking a nice long bubble bath last night which helped a little to get my mind off things. I don't have any friends I could really call so bubble bath it was. But the thoughts came back when I was trying to go to bed. I've been trying to think *why* I'm so afraid of the NP. I think I'm afraid of the NP because maybe I'm afraid of losing the connection I already have. I feel like my doctor cares and they said they did too. I'm afraid of the NP because I don't like change, and I'm afraid I won't be special anymore--even if I'm realistically not. I'm afraid she won't like me and it'll be in and out med checks, which I don't have right now. My doctor lets me ramble on about life and things during our med checks. I just don't want to be well enough to have things change. I'm hoping they'll feel I'm complicated enough to stay with the doctor. I'm been doing really well and I'm still so worried. I'm not quite sure why. Thanks for listening to this stream of conscious rambling.
Posted by gibbons482 on October 2, 2009, at 16:42:28
In reply to Re: Terrified and Alone, posted by gibbons482 on October 2, 2009, at 16:39:54
No my doctor does not know about this. I'm even more terrified of bring THIS up with the doctor.
Posted by obsidian on October 2, 2009, at 21:06:53
In reply to Re: Terrified and Alone, posted by gibbons482 on October 2, 2009, at 16:42:28
it sucks that you can't keep seeing your doc unless you're "sick", I don't like that step-down to a NP idea. :-( I hope you feel a bit better soon.
-sid
Posted by Phillipa on October 2, 2009, at 21:28:37
In reply to Re: Terrified and Alone, posted by gibbons482 on October 2, 2009, at 16:39:54
Kind of like my pdoc getting in car accident in April haven't seen her since March so see the PA so now getting worse as I know she won't be back is 72 and hired another pdoc to work with her. I'll take the PA first she lets me talk . Eight hour day to make the trip not including food, and the appointment. Love Phillipa ps I know the fear.
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