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Posted by Nadezda on January 3, 2009, at 12:01:01
I'm in one.
I don't even know why, other than having nothing to do for three weeks, and hanging out on Second Life and getting knots in my stomach from some of it.
And having the little work I did not go well.
And just feeling like I hate myself, for no reason-- no reason outside the usual, that is.
And we have this party this afternoon from 4-7, which I'm dreading, but I'm trying to bite my tongue so I don't upset my bf, who gets upset if I get really rattled and against things. Which I do at times. I'm pretty awful when I do. I really don't blame him, I couldn't put up with myself. But I really really don't want to do this, esp. in the afternoon. I hate afternoon parties. I have no idea why we're having one, except he forgot to ask me when I thought we should do it. Although he says he told me, but I/m pretty much 100% sure he never mentioned the time, and I thought we were going to have it in the evening.
Why do I have to be so utterly wretched over minor things, even if they pile up for a time? Why do transitory emptinesses unhinge me so much. Three weeks isn't my whole life; and I could have done better things, if I hadn't been unhinged from myself all along.
Sorry. I guess this is a rant.
Nadezda
Posted by Phillipa on January 3, 2009, at 13:03:34
In reply to Horrible mood, posted by Nadezda on January 3, 2009, at 12:01:01
I'd rant to but mine scare me. Love Phillipa. Well a party is being with people and will you have fun?
Posted by Partlycloudy on January 3, 2009, at 13:11:27
In reply to Horrible mood, posted by Nadezda on January 3, 2009, at 12:01:01
I can relate to your horrible mood. At least some of it I can attribute to having too much together time with my Sig. Other. He's such a nice guy, but maybe too much of a good thing??? I don't know, but I was describing myself to a friend as a sack full of angry wasps right now. Can't really soothe myself, no calming, just have to ride this through.
Not much consolation, except in shared misery. Sorry about that.
(I couldn't fathom hosting a party right now, though. Yikes!!) Breathe deep, take a whiff of lavender, think of happier times, bunches of flowers, playful puppies, Take Me Away, Calgon!Before you know it, it'll be all over but for the cleaning up :-)
I don't mind that bit, I'll come by and help you with that, just get rid of the people first.
Posted by Sigismund on January 3, 2009, at 15:27:21
In reply to Horrible mood, posted by Nadezda on January 3, 2009, at 12:01:01
Parties that go from 4 to 7 are fairly serious.
Too early in the day to drink too much, by the time you get used to them you have to leave and make for the door....such parties are more than transitory emptinesses.
OTOH, there should be no dancing.Mind you I'm not invited to them any more, so this is just a memory.
I do better at parties with a theme, though not, I hasten to say, anything involving fancy dress.
We had an Obama election party and there will be an inauguration one, where, thankfully, we will be able to talk politics.
Otherwise I end up having conversations with people who ask me if I take antidepressants, and if not, why not.
'It's good to be positive, isn't it?' she said.
She'd taught accounting at Oxford. I put her remark down to some English peculiarity.
That conversation did take place at a 4-7 party (so that was an invitation, but I've known him for almost 40 years).
I'd had a few drinks which perhaps made it less painful.If you find a way out, I'd be interested to know what it is.
Posted by Sigismund on January 3, 2009, at 15:32:43
In reply to Horrible mood, posted by Nadezda on January 3, 2009, at 12:01:01
You're *hosting* it?
Oh my goodness.
Posted by llurpsienoodle on January 3, 2009, at 17:18:50
In reply to Re: Horrible mood, posted by Sigismund on January 3, 2009, at 15:32:43
3 weeks underoccupied is enough to put ME in a horrible mood. That's why I've got yarn. It's the semester break. Despite working 20 hours a week, I'm still underoccupied. consequently klonopinned and doing dumb things like knitting sleeves too short, etc.
-Ll
good luck with the party. I hope that you can light a candle in the corner and just hunker down next to it.
glass of champagne?
Posted by onceupon on January 3, 2009, at 21:51:07
In reply to Horrible mood, posted by Nadezda on January 3, 2009, at 12:01:01
I hope you've made it through the party by now, Nadezda. And that you're snuggled up cozy and warm with a cup of tea, or perhaps something stronger if that suits you.
Transitory emptiness, as you put it, sucks. I throw myself into mindless things - reading, crocheting - and when I look up again, it's one in the morning and I'm not sure what I've done all day.
Do you have anything to look forward to in the coming days? Is the period of having nothing to do coming to an end?
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