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Posted by Lemonaide on July 15, 2008, at 21:16:32
Hi all, most of you know me from another name. I have had to change my identity mostly because both my old and new T knows of my posting here, they have copies of my emails.
I had an eye opening experience this weekend. I was invited to participate in my high school alumni band. Well being in my old school and going past my old home brought up how I felt most of my life. Lonely and sad. Most didn't know, I always had a smile on my face. Well the same feeling is still with me, I am sad and lonely, it is something inside of me that wishes for that can never have.
My T said today that he wants me to get the point of accepting that and to learn to see how it shaped me into the person I am. He thinks this experience of my past life will be a tool in helping others. It was a huge breakthrough to be able to pinpoint how I feel now deep inside and seeing the birth of when it started. (my childhood)
I also realized that me music experience wasn't for much more than an ego thing. I practiced enough to be good, but I had no real talent, and I struggled with that. My life was music and if I accepted I wasn't all that good, then all of me would have been bad because I lived for my music.
It was all for attention, hey look at me. I yearned for attention I never got, and this gave me some. But I was always lonely for parental love and acceptance. No attention would fill that hole that was void from infancy. But I tried my best to fill that hole.
My T is simular to me in that respect only for him it was with sports. He wasn't built as an athlete, but with his strong will he could achieve so much. He did this for his way of gaining attention that he didn't get as a child.By the way, if you are still reading, he is home from the hospital. Still recovering from his very rare virus. He told me that the card I sent him made his day, it was so right on! I am so glad to see him, I love that man. I really do, and not improper either, I love his spirit, I care about him, and he is okay with that. He is planning on meeting in person with my old T, as soon as he can drive. He said he would rather do it in person, considering the sensitivity level of what is going to be discussed. He is also going to tell him his experiences he has had in the same situation. He said this will be learning experience for him, my old T and me. My T is there for me in my corner.
Posted by LadyBug on July 15, 2008, at 22:40:27
In reply to Hello, posted by Lemonaide on July 15, 2008, at 21:16:32
Nice name! What's better than a nice ice cold glass of lemonade on a hot summer day? Maybe a "good luck" ladybug to come and sit for a while, while you enjoy some relaxation? Hope all goes as planned with your T situation.
My best........
LadyBug
Posted by Dinah on July 15, 2008, at 22:42:39
In reply to Hello, posted by Lemonaide on July 15, 2008, at 21:16:32
I'm glad he's home safe from the hospital. It's scary to have to worry about our therapists.
Posted by Lemonaide on July 15, 2008, at 23:40:44
In reply to Re: Hello » Lemonaide, posted by LadyBug on July 15, 2008, at 22:40:27
I would love for a ladybug to hang out on the rim of my glass!
You are such a sweetie!The thing is that I don't know what to plan because everything seems weird. I still can't believe my T wants to do this for me. He won't be telling my old T that he is judging the safety of the situation for me seeing him again. If he believes it isn't wise for me to meet with him, then I won't. I trust my T knows what is best for me. So I just don't know what to expect.
What is weird that I am having 2 T's talk about me with each other. The thing is that they each know a different part of me, but yet they know the basic part of me.
In a way I feel like what my T is doing for me just shows to the extent he will help me. He is gold, he really is. The world is a better place because he is in it for sure. :-)
Posted by Lemonaide on July 15, 2008, at 23:51:44
In reply to Re: Hello » Lemonaide, posted by Dinah on July 15, 2008, at 22:42:39
Hi Dinah,
He was so animated today, so pumped because he could do 2 jumping jacks at lunch. lol He couldn't 5 days ago. His attitude to physical problems amazes me. I am sure his progress of this, which amazes most of the specialists, is due to his determination.
Most are still in the hospital with his condition. They expect a full recovery, so that is great. He can't drive yet, and he has to be careful because he doesn't have full sensation of feeling in his feet.
Dinah, I have never felt so much fondness for someone who wasn't a relative or a marriage partner, just knowing him has made me a better person.
He truly is special, not to me only, but to his profession. He loves what he is doing and he is working past retirement age because he feels good about what he does. Some of that attitude is rubbing off on me, and that is probably a good thing.
I have made so much progress in things I didn't even know was wrong with me. lol His honesty has helped me so much and when he needs to tell me something I probably don't want to hear, he is so sensitive, and does it so gently, I don't take offense because he is looking out for my best interest and wouldn't hurt me on purpose. (how is that run on sentence, I am speaking from my heart I guess) lol Sorry for the long post, I am just so happy after seeing him today. ;-)
Posted by Lemonaide on July 16, 2008, at 0:02:31
In reply to Hello, posted by Lemonaide on July 15, 2008, at 21:16:32
What he has is called Guillain-Barre syndrome and started after he was in the hospital with what they thought was heart problems, but it was a intestinal virus. They still put a stent his heart at the time.
So when he had problems 3 weeks later, he thought it was a problem with his heart, like a stroke. So he got the hospital right away and was treated and diagnosed right away. Thank goodness.
Posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2008, at 0:43:50
In reply to Re: Hello, posted by Lemonaide on July 16, 2008, at 0:02:31
Shoot I have one of those blank moments and can't remember what it is will google and bed for me. I like lemonaide. Love Phillipa
Posted by muffled on July 16, 2008, at 10:58:27
In reply to Re: Hello, posted by Lemonaide on July 16, 2008, at 0:02:31
I am SO thankful your T is ok.
That can be a nasty virus :-(.
He must have caught it early.
I am glad that he is there for you, man, after what you endured you sure deserve some kindness and someone in your corner.
And what a great role model for you in your career choice!!!
Goto go, I am happy for you!
M
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