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Posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 12:21:16
I'm not sure why I said that.
I guess I just wanted to warn people that I might be a bit erratic over the next little while. Part of me is marginally suicidal, definitely self destructive, and depressed. The other part is slightly hypomanic with a big OCD flareup. And you're likely to see posts from me that are in complete contradiction in tone and content and perception. I guess I feel kind of bad subjecting others to really depressed posts, having them extend a hand, only to see me silly and giddy a few hours later.
And to keep this psychological (smile) my poor therapist is having a really fun time right now with Jekyll and Hyde as his client (bad analogy Eeyore/Tigger?). He's handling it beautifully though. And my family is seeing the hypomanic side almost exclusively, so they're ok.
Posted by gardenergirl on September 20, 2004, at 13:37:37
In reply to Aphrodite? And everyone else too., posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 12:21:16
Dinah,
I'm sorry things are rough right now. It's very generous of you to give us a heads up. How can we help?gg
Posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 13:45:24
In reply to Re: Aphrodite? And everyone else too. » Dinah, posted by gardenergirl on September 20, 2004, at 13:37:37
I think the biggest help would be a bit of patience if I'm a bit unstable. I worry about posting sometimes, and even avoid it, because I'm afraid that I'll upset others. Especially if I'm really really inconsistent in my responses.
I think that mostly I'm going to appear ok, if a bit revved up.
But you should see my credit card statement. Hypomania has a high price, literally. :(
Maybe part of getting better is to be able to see what's going on and not get swept along on the mood extremes. It doesn't stop them from happening, but maybe it makes it seem less catastrophic.
Thanks a whole bunch, gg. I appreciate it.
Posted by partlycloudy on September 20, 2004, at 14:03:51
In reply to Aphrodite? And everyone else too., posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 12:21:16
Sorry you're having a tough time, Dinah. I think that sometimes these flare ups are a reaction to stress that builds up - your dogs, your parents' health, deadlines for work. They all contribute to making getting by day to day much more difficult. No problem cutting you slack, since you are the Babble Queen. More important is that you cut yourself slack. Definitely recognizing that you've slid into a patch of black ice is going to help you, but be kind to yourself.
pc
Posted by crazymaisie on September 20, 2004, at 14:08:14
In reply to Aphrodite? And everyone else too., posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 12:21:16
hi Dinah,
i'm not really sure what to say by way of support, but i do want to say that i hope you're feeling better soon. you are always so generous and helpful to others on this board, you always seem to be able to find some words of advice or comfort and you deserve to feel better so i hope it happens soon for you.
btw, love the eeyore/tigger analogy. i LOVE eeyore. i like tigger, too, but eeyore is my favourite.
be well
maisie
Posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 14:12:03
In reply to Re: Aphrodite? And everyone else too. » Dinah, posted by crazymaisie on September 20, 2004, at 14:08:14
I love Eeyore too. We bought a pair of Eeyore ears and hung them in our hall. We thought they could work as a sort of family communication device, as we're a couple of souls with definite Eeyore tendencies. But of course, it's difficult to do that sensitively so they sit unused on their hook. :)
Posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 14:18:48
In reply to Re: Aphrodite? And everyone else too. » Dinah, posted by partlycloudy on September 20, 2004, at 14:03:51
Thanks, Partlycloudy. It *is* hard to cut myself slack. Not only do I feel like it's my responsibility to keep the negative feelings buried deeply so as not to affect my husband and son, but I get relatively annoyed with myself for feeling them. Despite the stressors in my life, I don't feel like I have enough on my plate to justify feeling that bad. But maybe I'm not being honest with myself. My mom is going into the hospital this week to have the remaining toes (except her big toe) removed on one foot. I'm going to have to have a lot of contact with her and my invalid father. I realize that both of them have more reason to be depressed than I, but still...
Posted by Aphrodite on September 20, 2004, at 14:33:18
In reply to Aphrodite? And everyone else too., posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 12:21:16
I was so sorry to hear in the post about dissociation that you were feeling suicidal. When I feel that way, the neurotic behavior flares up with me too and the worst thing is that those all-night cleaning sessions I do to avoid wanting to hurt myself end up sapping all the energy I have, and I need that energy to try to feel better. I become trapped in a vicious cycle.
We all understand, Dinah, please keep posting. You have helped me through so many rough patches. If it helps to have us see you through, please let us try to give back.
(((Dinah)))
Posted by daisym on September 20, 2004, at 16:15:28
In reply to Aphrodite? And everyone else too., posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 12:21:16
Dinah,
I totally get your split and no worries about us understanding. In some ways I wish I could achieve your split as I have soooo much work to do and ALL of "us" are feeling a bit low energy and depressed today.
I don't think you should discount the past few weeks and all of the external pressures you've felt. When things beyond your control effect your life, the impact can be huge. Not to mention your feelings about your doggies and all the sadness there as well. Add in your mom (and dad)...I can see why your emotional side is on the edge.
I'll echo everyone else to remind you to comfort yourself instead of ignoring this part of you. (Remember, do as I say, not as I do!)
BIG HUG,
daisy
Posted by Dinah on September 20, 2004, at 17:38:05
In reply to Re: Aphrodite? And everyone else too. » Dinah, posted by Aphrodite on September 20, 2004, at 14:33:18
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