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Posted by zmg on November 28, 2006, at 16:22:41
I haven't posted in a long time and I don't remember if I'd introduced myself before anyway.
As I've mentioned in psycho-babble I've been taking Valium for almost 2 years to treat anxiety, which I've recently stopped. I've suffered from moderate to high depression and anxiety for most (all?) of my life.
I attempted suicide at 19 via overdose of OTC sleep medication which landed me a all-expenses paid vacation to my local ER (for nearly a week, before I was coherent enough to be discharged). This was actually a good experience, it made at least one thing clear: I didn't want to die.
I've spent most of the rest of those years doing what I do best (plodding along).
When I'm not being useless I run a moderately successful pop/arts website (popexperiment.com).
I work in the technology industry (as a systems admin) for a company that builds web applications (things like surveys and other custom web applications).
I'm currently taking 25-37 mg Stablon a day (slightly irregularly) along with fish oil and regular multi-vitamin/minerals.
I'm slightly less of a wreck then I've been but I'm really struggling with motivation right now, which a lot of my posts will probably reflect.
I've always enjoyed the community and information here and I hope I don't offend anyone (I can be a little careless from time to time).
I think that probably covers it. I am not currently seeing a doctor and haven't for quite some time, but I do plan to.
Also I've acquired and quit 2 drug habits: cigarettes and Ritlan. Both over 5 years ago and in neither case relapsed (trendy recreational drug use stopped in my mid-twenties, I'm currently 34).
Ciao!
Posted by karen_kay on November 30, 2006, at 8:52:03
In reply to Sort of new here ..., posted by zmg on November 28, 2006, at 16:22:41
heya! i'm kk. i may have a few things to say about your post...
about plodding along: ha! sounds like how i've spent the last few years of my life, getting by. sometimes better than others. but, in may, i undertook a new and important adventure- having my son. so, i'm still plodding along, with a kid in tow. (but goodness, he sure does make me happy. he really does give me a reason to smile at least 4 times a day (when the little duckie finally goes to sleep! just kidding of course, that boy is my world). but, perhaps you can find something to get excited about (jeez, i don't sound like some stupid motivational speaker, do i?) but, maybe it's jsut coffee and cigarettes (it got me through for a while, honestly! knowing there was a cup of coffee waiting for me to get out of bed and a cigarette calling my name, really helped get me through. maybe you can find something like that, jsut a small amount of motivation when you can't come up with it on your own?
oh crap, after rereading your post, i see you quit smoking. (well, i bet there really is a cigarette calling your name then, huh? sorry to remind you. it's a filthy habit that i need to drop like an exboyfriend, but i don't see it happening right now.
one other thing; why not try to devote more time to your art site? maybe taking it from moderately successful to fantastically successful will help improve your motivation and mood?
take care of yourself!
kk
Posted by zmg on November 30, 2006, at 11:34:56
In reply to Re: Sort of new here ..., posted by karen_kay on November 30, 2006, at 8:52:03
Thanks Karen. You are of course right about the cigarette. I smoked terrible French cigarette too! (no offense to the French, Gitanes are the espresso of cigarettes!).
Honestly, I'd love to devote more time to the website but I've been trying and still getting less and less done.
Anyway, for now I'm going to try switching out to Olmifon (Adrafinil) and see if it tips my motivation or my anxiety (or both!).
Your son sounds excellent!
Posted by karen_kay on November 30, 2006, at 13:14:43
In reply to Re: Sort of new here ... » karen_kay, posted by zmg on November 30, 2006, at 11:34:56
i have bought a pack of camel lights in france before. the packaging was differnt (pastel.. would you know why that is?). (at least in france you can buy codein over the counter.
speaking of: have you seen thank you for smoking? if not, you should. it's hilarious.
Posted by zmg on November 30, 2006, at 13:40:09
In reply to yuck to french smokes » zmg, posted by karen_kay on November 30, 2006, at 13:14:43
Thank you for smoking? Actually I have. It was a good laugh for sure.
Maybe the Gitanes helped me stop. One day I just couldn't smoke any more. I'd tried to quit for years with no luck, but they just started making me feel bad.
After that if I even had a drag I'd get terribly nauseous, so no relapse!
Now if I could just do the same with alcohol and junk food. :)
Posted by karen_kay on December 1, 2006, at 7:45:07
In reply to Re: yuck to french smokes » karen_kay, posted by zmg on November 30, 2006, at 13:40:09
is there really a good reason to give these things up? i mean, honestly, can aperson really make ti through the day without a ding dong and a cold beer? and, is there really a good reason why anyone should want to try?
about smoking... it's starting to really become ridiculous for me. i'm hacking (liek an 80- year old woman) now. and my lungs hurt. it's becoming an annoying habit for me and hope to commit to stopping within the decade (hey, that's progress! previously i had said i'll never quit, so i'm at least thinking about quitting now.)
so, how long have you been around here? and why aren't you over at social anyway? you'll get all kinds of responses over there!
take care of your lungs,
kk
Posted by karen_kay on December 1, 2006, at 7:47:10
In reply to about alcohol and junk food..., posted by karen_kay on December 1, 2006, at 7:45:07
and, i'll pop over to your site. (i had a friend who did pop art and i loved it. was even going to commission him to do a piece for me, but he was my exboyfriend's friend (follow that?) and i was broke, so no chance of an even trade!
Posted by zmg on December 1, 2006, at 11:55:01
In reply to Re: about alcohol and junk food..., posted by karen_kay on December 1, 2006, at 7:47:10
Ya, I'm loving modern art. Very nice people. Design as art is really fun too.
Dr-bob has been an on and off thing for me. While I was on the Valium things were going pretty smoothly and I'd get busy in day-to-day stuff (like PE, work, school, etc). Now that I'm off I remember DB. Its a nice environment, its good to see people being nice for no good reason. Turkey for the soul.
Junk food. My wife swears it will help with anxiety/etc, but getting older and having the extra weight isn't nearly as much fun anymore!
Anyway, I've always been a rather big fan of the mind, so I lurk/post in Psycho mostly. Between the odd tasks at work and what-not.
Hope you enjoy the site!
Posted by karen_kay on December 2, 2006, at 8:55:21
In reply to Re: about alcohol and junk food... » karen_kay, posted by zmg on December 1, 2006, at 11:55:01
about being interested in the mind: me too! i actually added psychology to my major after i started therapy and stuff. i'm very interested in why people do what they do (mainly me!!!!) that was the board that i first started reading when i found babble. there are a lot of fun people over there too (though i haven't cehcked over there in a while.)
abotu art: i'm completely art-stupid. i can't draw (not even stick people). i can't paint. i *can* color (and very well, if i may say so). i'm fascinated by art, as i can't seem to express myself that way (god!!! i wish i could. though!)
about using babble when you're your worst: funny, but the periood of tiem when i wasn't on babble was probably the time i needed it most. my house burnt down (last year, right aroudn this time) and i lost everything! but, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would bne, being 6 months pregnant and having a fire. it's really something to be standing outsid ein the snow (and BOY was there snow!) watching your house burn down. but, after the fire, i didn't have access to a computer (both burned in fire), so i didn't have babble around when i really could have benefited from it.
PE???? are you talking about gym class? (i can be dense at times, but that's the only thing i can think of)how long have you been married? i just got a card and a rose last night for my 20th (month, that is) anniversary. i thought that was sweet.
and i think your wife might be right about the junk food. a person who doesn't eat chocolate, just isn't really human, are they?
i still haven't checked out your site (good god woman, what are you waiting for anyway?). but, i'll probabhly get around to it this weekend.
hope you're enjoying your weekend. (oh, do you have any kids? i have an almost 7 month old little boy, who is the CUTEST EVER!!!!!!)
bye bye,
kk
Posted by zmg on December 3, 2006, at 13:36:10
In reply to Re: about alcohol and junk food... » zmg, posted by karen_kay on December 2, 2006, at 8:55:21
I've manged to do almost nothing this weekend, which is great (a bit unproductive)!
PE. Lol. Sorry, thats my personal short-hand for my site. I work on it so much and the vague reference cracks me up.
No kids. I'd kind of like to, but I don't see it in the cards. I've been married for 3 (??) years.
Losing your house must have been pretty intense. In Seattle I spent one night (during the LA riots) watching our apartment burn. All sorts of crazy things go through your head (only the roof ended up burning, so I didn't go through nearly as much).
Anyway, if school had agreed with me more I'd probably have studied neurophysiology along with some psych classes. Beautiful brain. :)
As for art, I'm pretty much in your boat. I can love it. I do what I can to support it, but at the end of the day thats about all. I've always landed a little more on the technical side of things so its probably about right running a site *about* the arts. Lol.
I'm off to wake up!
Posted by karen_kay on December 23, 2006, at 9:52:04
In reply to Re: about alcohol and junk food..., posted by zmg on December 3, 2006, at 13:36:10
married 3 (???) years? better not let your wife see that. she probably knows precisely the amount of time you've been married, down to the hour. you better study up and memorize the amount of time you've been married, or it may not make it to 4 (???) years :)
how's your holiday coming along? do you celebrate christmas? doen with shopping yet? we're pretty close here (thank god! i can't believe how much stuff you have to buy when there are a bunch of kids around. and the santa thing, it's so hard not to tell. i never did say i could keep a secret, now did i?)
hope all is well with you,
kk
Posted by zmg on December 23, 2006, at 13:35:20
In reply to about christmas... » zmg, posted by karen_kay on December 23, 2006, at 9:52:04
Glad to hear from you actually. I agree regarding the secrets, I love giving gifts and can barely contain myself (I can't imagine if kids were involved, I'd be sunk!).
So far so good regarding the holidays. We generally teeter on the edge so my forgetfullness is probably least of my worries (I try not to worry to much about it, we are great friends and what happens will).
Anyway, I *think* we've managed to secure a lite Christmas. I'm not so much one for tradition (just like the gift giving, which I managed early enough!).
And you?
Posted by karen_kay on December 29, 2006, at 15:38:28
In reply to Re: about christmas... » karen_kay, posted by zmg on December 23, 2006, at 13:35:20
firstly, at this point i am NOT 'adding the name of previous poster' button. why shoudl i anyway? if we're the only ones talking to eachother (hey, let's take advantage!!!) then there's really no need to specifically (geez, that was hard to sound out!) press that button. just another reason to have to click that mouse and i'm not doing it in this thread anymore!!!
and my god, i use a lot of these (((())))things, don't i? but, that's exactly how i talk.
ok, and about no one else being in this thread.... good, we can take this opportunity to gossip (and boy do i have a bunch!!!!) (oh, adn you do love to gossip, right? if not, too bad, bear with me. because i sure do!)
ok, ok where do i start? (weird how i was going to go into my christmas presents in great detail and instead am gossiping) that all done girl: (she's my favorite to gossip about) she stinks (no, literally!) adn you should hear some of the things she says about people (especially mr bob!). i'd watch myself around her, beccasue i know she appears to be quite charming (she's very good at pretending to know social skills when in reality she has no clue. honestly, i've seen that girl on her way to work wearing (goodness!) her underpants on the outside. to make matters worse, she doesn't wear cute underpants. i'm talking full-out granny panties. now i'm being dead serious here! that girl has no sense of anything, balance, style, humor. good thing she's married (and a bit young, if i may add) because i highly doubt she'd be able to find a mate (and you should hear her eat! it's disgusting!). thanks for arranged marriages, eh?
ok, that's enough gossip for now. but, if you're interested, i can tell you all kinds of stuff about some of the posters here. tofuemmy's next (and i could type until i'm dead, nonstop, and never run out of things to say about that girl!).
about you (wait, i'm c&ping) 'Glad to hear from you actually' : what's that supposed to mean? like normally you wouldn't be? (sorry, i'm feeling rather combative, can you tell?). i'll let that comment go this time BUT (and ask my husband! i do this quite often) i reserve the right to hold this comment against you at ANY time, for the rest of your natural life and (depending on how pissed i am,) maybe beyond the grave (lucky you!).
ok, let's see what else you wrote here: yeah, i really agree about secrets. good thing with kids is, they can't keep them either (and have the worst memories EVER!). so, even though everyone knew what my nieces were getting them, at least they didn't see them early (see, everyone i got presents for either saw all of them before they were wrapped or even got them way early (hey, my husband was fixing the bvehicle and the factory jack sucked (now why in the world would an suv have a teeny, tiny jack? i swear, they're waiting for a lawsuit). so, i got him a (some fancy word i can't even spell) jack. and gave him the gift of accident avoidance for christmas.
wanna know what i got?????? i got an ipod (awesome!!!) and a new coat, and other clothes and bunch other stuff. but, i got an ipod and that makes it so easy to just listen to music all day (and tune everything else out). hey, i got some more gossip! my guilty pleasure is.... reo speedwagon. shhhhhhhhh. don't tell, but i rock out to them (until i get to the gas station and see people staring at me because i've got the radio blarring to take it on the run.
this was my son's first christmas (that boy got so many toys that are annoying and loud and going to 'disappear' next friday (trash day). he opened presents (and ate the wrapping). and he tried to eat the christmas tree (that boy is grabby!!!).
i had an awesome christmas though. i think this year was my favorite christmas ever! (it is so fun having kids around this time of year. they get so excited and it's really contagious!)
i could have doen without my mother in law coming over for a few days and drinking all the beer (and boy did i get drunk on wine the day after christmas. yuck, i feel ill thinking about it!).
alright alright, that's enough for now (nosey, aren't ya?). sorry, i guess i do talk about myself a whole lot (geez, and i'm JUST beginning to realize that??) but it's got to be one of my favorite subjects!
take care and you have to tell me all about your christmas!!!!
kk
ps. why haven't i seen you on the social board? that's usually where i stick to (admin gets interesting sometimes too!) so, i BETTER be seeing you around, k>?
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