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Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 12, 2005, at 8:13:15
Hi all, My name is Debbie, I live in NY, was born and raised in Australia and ran away from there 11 years ago. Always ran... i thought i was looking for something all my life but recently discovered i was running from myself. For 30 of my 40 years i had no memory of the csa, neglect and abandonment. For the last 10 years i was denying it whilst being a drunk. Until 1 month ago when i got very drunk and punched a cop and landed myself in the lock-up.
That episode convinced me that i needed to face my biggest fears. I am seeing a T and taking Paxil though i havent been diagnosed yet. I seem to be getting much worse since i stopped denying.
I own a small trucking company that i sacrificed everything for 3 years ago and now i find myself
dropping customers left right and center. I dont want to work anymore. Last week i selfishly went out and bought a brand new Harley that i couldnt really afford cause i thought it might make me feel better ( actually, i feel it gives me back just enough strength to get out of bed each day).
I felt strong and independent when i was in denial and now i feel so weak and useless. Is it normal to feel a whole lot worse before ya can feel better? I have a gazillion questions?????
So glad i found this site.
P.S by the way i hadn't even heard of transference until i caught it in the 2nd session. What have i gotten myself into this time?
Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 12, 2005, at 8:15:35
In reply to undiagnosed, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 12, 2005, at 8:13:15
sorry.wrong board (I'm new) DAH
Posted by ClearSkies on August 12, 2005, at 14:48:37
In reply to Re: undiagnosed, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 12, 2005, at 8:15:35
Happens to me all the time!!!
Posted by coley on August 15, 2005, at 3:30:54
In reply to undiagnosed, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 12, 2005, at 8:13:15
I am finally out of denial as well, however even though I have been self medicating (very foolish) I am scared as hell to go talk to someone. My mother has been on Xanax since my kid sister was born over ten years ago, and I fear being hooked on anything anymore. Xanax hasn't helped my mom, probably because she is an alcoholic as well though, but geez I am just clueless about what to do!!!!!!!!!!!
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