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Posted by karen_kay on April 21, 2008, at 14:03:59
no, not a who's on my sh*t list, but an 'i feel like sh*t list. here goes:
10. i'm never going to be the person i want to be.
9. i'm ruining my child
8. even though i'm surrounded by 2 amazing men (and one's not even 2 yet), i can't help but want to escape. what the f*ck's wrong with me (and i can't use that mental illness excuse any more.
7. why the f*ck do meds have to be so expensive?
6. why do meds not work anyway?
5. and when they start to work, why do you still feel like sh*t anyway?
4. and why do they have so many side effects?
3. and why are dr's so dumb and do they even hear what patients/clients/peopel that are paying them have to say anyway?
2. why'd i have to take those naked pictures (ok, that's a joke. at least i can joke still.). on second thought, why didn't i take naked pictures so i'd have some extra money?
1. why did i have to be born with my parents? i'm sick of saying 'oh, that makes me who i am.' i'm starting to not buy that bs anymore, especially on days like this.'
blah!
Posted by karen_kay on April 21, 2008, at 19:28:08
In reply to an 'i feel like sh*t list' watch for curse words!, posted by karen_kay on April 21, 2008, at 14:03:59
man, there's soethign really wrong with me, me thinks!!!
duh, as if i didn't already know that. yummy lasagna in the oven. that's my one. and sugar cookies from last ngiht. there's 2. pot. that's 3. little post it notes (they come in handy!!) that makes 4. my duckie going to bed without a fuss mostly every night! (5!!!)
6. a shirt that makes my boobs look fabulous!
7. and it's low cut
8. still have smokes
9. and the lungs to smoke them with
10. sisters. pictures. friends. birthday party where i didn't know but 2 people. constantly wonderign what the f*ck is wrong with me (wait, this is supposed to be positive!!!).. scratch that one. cusinart is sending me a free coffee pot to replace the one that broke, minus shipping and handling. (shameless plug for cusinart, but that's pretty sweet, especially with no reciept!) seeign my sister tomorrow. my mother offering to keep my son a few days because she knows i'm not feelign well. constant calls from concerned family members really do help, even if i dont want to talk to them. ((((family and friends))) and i really do look cute when i cry. toph, yeah toph, who always makes me smile. and that kid who always cheers me up.
Posted by llurpsienoodle on April 22, 2008, at 9:21:57
In reply to feelings don't last forever, BUTTTT!!!, posted by karen_kay on April 21, 2008, at 19:28:08
> man, there's soethign really wrong with me, me thinks!!!
(((((kk))))) Is there something that you can look forward to today? I don't mean to sound all sappy and stuff, but you are such a bright spirit around these parts; I hate to see you hurting.
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> duh, as if i didn't already know that. yummy lasagna in the oven. that's my one. and sugar cookies from last ngiht. there's 2. pot. that's 3. little post it notes (they come in handy!!) that makes 4. my duckie going to bed without a fuss mostly every night! (5!!!)
>I luv me some post-it notes. I am a total stationary slut. I can spend thousands of dollars on paper and cards and fancy pens, and yet I never do manage to write thank you cards. Ducky's a wonderful kiddo. I'm glad that he gets to bed easily. What a blessing.
> 6. a shirt that makes my boobs look fabulous!
>I wore one yesterday. fun to watch the menfolks stare, huh? haha!!!!!
> 7. and it's low cut
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ooh you are too much. I'm gonna start getting a girl-crush if you keep going on.> 8. still have smokes
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> 9. and the lungs to smoke them with
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> 10. sisters. pictures. friends. birthday party where i didn't know but 2 people. constantly wonderign what the f*ck is wrong with me (wait, this is supposed to be positive!!!).. scratch that one. cusinart is sending me a free coffee pot to replace the one that broke, minus shipping and handling. (shameless plug for cusinart, but that's pretty sweet, especially with no reciept!) seeign my sister tomorrow. my mother offering to keep my son a few days because she knows i'm not feelign well. constant calls from concerned family members really do help, even if i dont want to talk to them. ((((family and friends))) and i really do look cute when i cry. toph, yeah toph, who always makes me smile. and that kid who always cheers me up.you mean that you've been making do without a coffee pot? Well, honey, DUH, that's what's wrong with you!. I made some iced coffee mix from powdered espresso and fat free halfnhalf. I just pour it over ice and voila, I have all kinds of jitters. Did you see my post on social? it's kind of a request for the community to rally around my caffeinated self.
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Posted by Sigismund on April 22, 2008, at 17:13:13
In reply to an 'i feel like sh*t list' watch for curse words!, posted by karen_kay on April 21, 2008, at 14:03:59
>even though i'm surrounded by 2 amazing men (and one's not even 2 yet), i can't help but want to escape. what the f*ck's wrong with me (and i can't use that mental illness excuse any more.
Feeling trapped, hey?Feeling trapped is an interesting state that I have had time to reflect on at length.
I think if you feel really really trapped then you search for a way out, which could lead to bloody anything.
My best guess is that we should think it's OK to feel trapped (ie, the feeling is meaningful), but (like this morning, for me, when I took some tianeptine) see it as a warning sign and not put up with too much for too long.
Posted by AbbieNormal on April 26, 2008, at 15:23:19
In reply to an 'i feel like sh*t list' watch for curse words!, posted by karen_kay on April 21, 2008, at 14:03:59
I regret not taking them when I had the body to look good in them. Takes lots now to sell later.
Abbie
Posted by karen_kay on May 4, 2008, at 19:41:53
In reply to Re: taking naked pictures » karen_kay, posted by AbbieNormal on April 26, 2008, at 15:23:19
Posted by karen_kay on May 4, 2008, at 19:45:45
In reply to Re: feelings don't last forever, BUTTTT!!! » karen_kay, posted by llurpsienoodle on April 22, 2008, at 9:21:57
you wrote: I'm gonna start getting a girl-crush if you keep going on.
tha's certainly something for me to look forward to!!!
and it's soooo mcuh fun to watch the men stare :) mister kk got on me (hey!!! get yoru mind out of the gutter girl!( for flirting back, especially when he's in the car... oh buttttt!!! it's so much fun to do, right?i'm feeling better (don't jinx it!!! is that how you spell jinx??)... no worries!
take care of you, GOT IT!!!
kk (your secret admirer!)
Posted by karen_kay on May 4, 2008, at 19:53:46
In reply to Feeling Trapped » karen_kay, posted by Sigismund on April 22, 2008, at 17:13:13
gosh, i hate that feeling, of being trapped. i often wonder if it's normal, that a whole lot of people out there feel the same way, or if it's my old/bad habits returning, with that sense to RUN run away when things get tough.
blah! now i don't know, you know? it's not like i'm putting up with anything or anything of that nature (well, other than the fights, which are a part of marriage, especially one married to me!! wanna get married? i can be a real cold-hearted bitch at times :).. but, like i was thinking, i'm not putting up with anything, it's more the thought 'there's somethign else out there' you know? and not necesarily men (unless bill gates calls me of course. or billy bob thornton, or chevy chase.. ok, you get the picture.), but jsut something. like i shouldn't be wasting my life aweay making f*ck*ng lasagna and sugar cookies, whrn i could be making money or doing something that makes me happy (not that feeding and tending to my son doesn't make me happy, but there's got to be somethign else too, you know? i need to fid tha balance, or else i need to get out of this stupid fairy tale mindset i have..
sh*t man, i don't know. i don't have a clue at all. is that what it's supposed to be like, in life? to roam around without a clue as to what you should be doing? or is it jsut me? because most people i talk to seem to know what's going on, while i'm still sitting around, wondering what i shoudl be doing...
wanna send me a plane ticket? montana's a gorgeous place, and i wouldn't mind visiting for a few years :)
gosh, you really got me thinking on that one...
kk
Posted by Sigismund on May 5, 2008, at 3:28:41
In reply to is it normal though? » Sigismund, posted by karen_kay on May 4, 2008, at 19:53:46
You wanna send me a plane ticket?
Just send me one for Peru.
I liked the sound of Montana (nice and cool) but I heard it was environmentally damaged?Look, it's normal to feel trapped. (Here's the optimist talking.)
We know too much about other options.
In the past we could only compare ourselves with our neighbours.
Waste and life? I think they go together.
Maybe that's why I liked history?
I mean, I hardly do anything, like normal stuff people are supposed to do, but the thing about human waste is big in history, and I found it a comfort.
(More optimism)My therapist said I found handling ambivalence difficult.
And feeling trapped is very much about that.
Posted by Sigismund on May 5, 2008, at 15:11:56
In reply to Re: is it normal though? » karen_kay, posted by Sigismund on May 5, 2008, at 3:28:41
Well, I was thinking that the feeling of having opportunities is like there being a window out of the trappedness.
Some of the feeling of being trapped comes from our natural ambivalence.
Can we find opportunities where we feel trapped?
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