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Posted by Fathe on April 14, 2008, at 16:39:32
Hi
I just stumbled on this board and it appears to be right up my alley. I post on the "medication" board as I have suffered on and off from mild depression. I think part of my reason for needing meds and being depressed is because I have such a low self-esteem. My whole existance is based on how others view me, not how I view myself, which might not matter since I do not view myself very well anyway.
Clearskies, you "face to face" post made me cry - I could feel the pain you feel and it hit home. I am feeling just as you do. I feel lost and not worthe much.
Anyway I hope I can peek in here and gleem some support. I know the "medication" board members are extremely nice and supportive.
Thank you .
Posted by ClearSkies on April 15, 2008, at 13:06:02
In reply to New to this board, posted by Fathe on April 14, 2008, at 16:39:32
Welcome to the Self Esteem board, Fathe. I think I'm going to try to do a "10" list, where we try to list good things about this day. It can be quite a challenge; sometimes I can't quite get past numbers 2 or 3... seeing others' lists though, can be an inspiration to me.
I know that my esteem issues came about when I was a teenager, and became worse as the years progressed. I'm now approaching my middle age, and it's more of a problem now that I want to come to terms with this body I have, the intelligence I have, and not to struggle so with them. "Room for improvement" is a message I've been giving myself for way too long now.
So I welcome you on this journey with us.
ClearSkies
Posted by Fathe on April 15, 2008, at 14:38:07
In reply to Re: New to this board » Fathe, posted by ClearSkies on April 15, 2008, at 13:06:02
Thank you so much Clear Skies. One thing you can add to your list is that yoru words are very soothing to me. So you have done someone good today too. And I too will make a Tuesday list even though right now I am hating every molecule of myself and feel I do not matter in this world. I guess I should post on the depression board too :(
It is hard to know whether the depression feeds the low self esteem or the other way around. Mostly I do not value myself so I am hoping if I can see the good in me, maybe the depression will lessen a bit. I have to be positive !!!
Thank you again.
Posted by ClearSkies on April 15, 2008, at 17:07:54
In reply to Re: New to this board, posted by Fathe on April 15, 2008, at 14:38:07
Thanks for your encouraging words :-)
I was talking to my therapist (for the first time, really) about my posting at babble and what I get out of it. She's very much a face to face T, and we don't email or even do "phone" work much if at all. She doesn't seem to value the internet relationships very much, but I have been posting here, under one name or another, for going on 5 years now. The boards have given me an enormous education and I'm always learning about communication skills (trying to be civil and still maintaining my composure). I also value the relationships that have grown out of my activity here - whether the friendships are through the boards, or even when I've been able to meet a few babblers in person, I'm struck at how our common experiences can bring us together.
CS
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